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Maybe I Want To (Be Myself)

by American Basswood

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1.
Intro 02:27
the flowers that have bloomed beautifully will soon wither and die just to arise in a couple of months. the snow beautiful and white will be stepped on after being gazed in awe for a while. things come and go, as do i. so please don't mourn as i say goodbye. because life is as fair as bad people are scarce and life is as fair as much as i care. so please don't cry...
2.
Inhale and exhale slowly breathe in and close your eyes fall asleep, wake up in the morning and you would be surprised how similar you feel, you don't feel any different. How similar do you feel? You feel like everybody else. Wake up to start your day. Drink some warm coffee, hip hip hooray! You go to work dressed to your best, you try to stay positive but you'd be surprised How similar you feel, you don't feel any different. How similar do you feel? You feel like everybody else! Walking away and sleeping in has never felt so good to you. Going out and getting drunk sounds like an awful thing to do. Oh, you've changed. You've changed so much. You're practically a different person but you, you, well you'd be surprised How similar you feel, you don't feel any different. How similar do you feel? You feel like everybody else! INHALE AND EXHALE SLOWLY BREATHE IN AND CLOSE YOUR EYES FALL ASLEEP WAKE UP IN THE MORNING AND SAY GOODNIGHT!
3.
wait wait wait, i have an idea...
4.
i'm not afraid to die i'm afraid to be alive because if it's a tooth for a tooth and an eye for an eye i should just pack up my things and say goodbye i'm not like your daddy, no i'm not a smoker and i'm not like brother, no i'm not a dealer and i'm not like your mom, i'll take care of you and you got me singing...
5.
and here's for the money i thought i needed, because now i know i don't need anything and here's for the thoughts i had in the nighttime, when i just needed some sleep. mom and dad, brother and friend, this song is for you, this song is for you. mom and dad, brother and friend, this song is for you and me. and maybe we won't make it out alive but i'm living right now at this time and maybe we won't make it out alive but i'm living right now at this time and where will i be in ten years? hopefully i am still singing here, and around the world where my songs will roam or will this office desk be my home? and here's for the people i thought had loved me you had me flying high but you're also the one's who crashed me and here's for the sleepless nights and the background noise on the tv and here's for the blinding lights in that car that you drove me around in and maybe we won't make it out alive but i'm living right now at this time and maybe we won't make it out alive but i'm living right now at this time and where will i be in ten years? hopefully i am still singing here, and around the world where my songs will roam or will this office desk be my home? 1, 2, 3, 4
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Going Out 03:11
There's something in my way 'cuz I tend to misbehave, and if everything goes my way, I'm still not going out today. There's something in my way 'cuz I tend to misbehave, and if everything goes my way, I'm still not going out today. I'm going off the road in a haze of smoke. Is this real life or just inside my head? Is this the source of light hollywood seems to like? This can't be the end. No I don't wanna be dead. This ride is bound to hell. Dead or alive it's a prison cell. Living is high on demand, and I've run out of souls to sell. We're all just snobs. Throw away your fake gods. You think we're all at evens, but honestly we're all at odds. I'm going off the road in a haze of smoke. Is this real life or just inside my head? Is this the source of light hollywood seems to like? This can't be the end. No I don't wanna be dead. I'm going off the road in a haze of smoke. Is this real life or just inside my head? Is this the source of light hollywood seems to like? This can't be the end. No I don't wanna be dead.
7.
some funk enthusiast poser: hey man, could you quiet it down? my kids are trying to sleep... me, and my funk: hey man, if you can't take the funk, don't ask for it! the man in the corner: preach it!
8.
five years i've been like this i've been at the top and i've been in shit i don't know where i'm going but i don't know what i'd do if i stayed. well, up there is quite something and down there you got nothing well, if you're in the middle you should be glad. bridges, buildings, and brothels i've seen 'em all through sunny and dark days i've stood tall day by day it's getting old and minute by minute i'm getting old and month by month, i'm losing breath and day by day i'm nearing death five years i've been like this i've been at the top and i've been in shit i don't know where i'm going but i don't know what i'd do if i stayed.
9.
i'm a drifter and i don't need your things i left my mother, father, and sister for this and this is what i sing... i sing "oh, i just don't know where to go where do i go?" i'm a singer and i just need a direction no one's ever liked my songs maybe i just need a direction "oh, i just don't know where to go where do i go?" i'm a writer but my pen has no ink my words have never been quieter and this is what i think i think "oh, i just don't know where to go where do i go?" all around me in this town are crooks no matter where you look no matter which road you took and i've been living in this good for nothing town where the people all around find hope in getting you down find hope in getting you down and i've been thinking about this when i lay down and close my eyes when there is no sound and i'm free from all the lies free from all the lies where's the truth in what you speak? where's the truth in what you speak? there's no truth in what you speak, no there's no truth in what you speak. we're all sinners just normal human beings we wanna go with the flow but we don't know where to go we just need something oh, i just don't know where to go where do i go?
10.
it's fine if you go i just want you to know that nothing is nearly as good as you remember it it's fine if you leave i just don't want you to see the things your protected eyes didn't get cuz it's scary out there and the world is a winter all of the year a blizzard of expectations followed by frost bite of the mind and cold breath in your hair yeah, i used to like the snow maybe i want to be myself put all of those anxieties on the shelf maybe i want to be myself, and hey here's something you can do maybe you can be yourself too it's fine that you're now realizing that all you were was a burden it's fine that you're now realizing that all you are is a burden and it'll be fine when you have that epiphany one night that a burden is what you were, what you are, and waht you'll be the rest of your life maybe i want to be myself put all of those burdens on the shelf maybe i want to be myself and here's something you can do maybe you could be yourself too i may not fit your definition of a good man but i've never lived my life as a scam i can say my life is full and i won't be living like a wolf in sheeps wool the idea of perfection is just an opinion so i can say i wont be under your command but i'll listen to the song i'm singing i can live as freely as a bird or i could follow your ungodly word i can't decide what life to have don't tell me what's good, don't tell me whats bad i'll go on alone, and maybe i'll just be on my own you tell me to go your way, but baby i'm taking the highway maybe i want to be myself put all of the stupid stuff i've done on my shelf maybe i want to be myself and here's something you can do maybe you can be yourself too

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Maybe I Want To (Be Myself) is American Basswood's first full length album. The songs for the album were written from before their previous EP "Today I Laughed A Lot and I Feel Good" and even as recent as approximately a week or two before the album was even released. Lyrically, the songs attempt to tackle the theme of finding yourself. Please enjoy 32 minutes of self deprecating indie rock for that good good price of $4.20!

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released May 12, 2017

All Songs written by American Basswood

American Basswood is:
Matthew McFarland
Scott Krause
Jon Self
Marley Sullivan

Tracks 2-9 produced by Bret Liber of Red Roof Productions
Tracks 1 & 10 produced by Jonathan Gillette in Jon's basement

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